Not because I'm upset about an older lady I like being pulled away from me constantly, but it seems very mean that people do that and it really "pisses me off."  If no one does it and it just happens, why is it such a problem?  Some people think it's their way of being social, but now I've become an active taboo.  All the average Orlando citizen would say is that nope that's not an issue, it doesn't even exist.  It seems people played "follow the leader" and say pretty much the older lady I like is the one and say, "What are we talking about?" about how I supposedly knew her and was supposed to be friends.

I feel like I got left alone but distracted.

It seems I can never get anything out of anyone for myself, but others do and I'm good and there's nothing wrong with me.  I keep getting tracked and plotted out.

I think Orlando is lost.  Pretty much, if I am depressed, people I know should be a problem in that way.

I found if I went to the grocery store and cooked every day ... I sleep for about 12 hours and there's breaks of time I get nothing done ... somehow there's no time left outside of getting dinner done.

I wonder if all my problems are making me tired, along with the medications.

I think Orlando is bad and ruined it for me.

I sorta feel depressed and attacked for being monitored in private and can't really enjoy myself, too.